So...I lied. I'm sorry. I had good intentions.

Aside from that, I don't have the time to type up my notes from a few word studies, so maybe once we get our "Summer of video-blogging going" then maybe I can share it. Why? Perhaps because I have mid-terms this week, and a regular test, and we are packing to excavate from the lovely abode that I now preside in!!!! (note that the last statement was made with the utmost of sarcasm and as much love as possible).

But I can share a few things from "If" by Amy Carmichael that have struck me:

"IF I refuse to be a corn of wheat that falls into the ground and dies ("is separated from all in which it lived before"), than I know nothing of Calvary love."

"IF I do not feel far more for the grieved Saviour than for my worried self when troublesome things occur, then I know nothing of Calvary love."






"The picture before us is as of a river. Stand on its banks and contemplate the flow of waters. A minute passes, and another. It is the same stream still" Yes. But is it the same water? No. The liquid mass that passed you a few seconds ago fills now another section of the channel; new water has displaced it, or if you please, replaced it; water instead of water. And so hour by hour, and year by year, and century by century, the process holds; one stream, other waters, living not stagnant, because always in the great identity there is perpetual exchange. Grace takes the place of grace, ( Love takes the place of love) ever new, ever old ever the same, ever fresh and young, for hour by hour, for year by year, through Christ.

...We have toiled for someone near to us, but never knew it toil. We have poured out stores of health never to be recovered, but did not know it nor would we have cared had we known it, so dearly did we love. And all our hope was that the one so cherished would become a minister to others. But it was not so.

And then unwillingly we become aware of unresponsiveness in the one for whom nothing had seemed too much to do, a coldness that chilled, a hardness that pushed away as with hard hands that pushed away as with hard hands the heart that had almost broken to save that life from destruction.

Then (but only those who have gone through such a bereft hour will understand) a fear worse than any pain has us in its grip: is the love of the years slipping from us? "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do": is that fading from our memory? Love never faileth: is love failing now? Shall we find ourselves meeting lovelessness with our lovelessness?

In such an hour, a saint now many years old felt a desperate prayer burned into words:

Deep unto deep, O Lord,
Crieth in me,
Gathering strength I come,
Lord unto Thee.
Jesus of Calvary,
Smitten for me,
Ask what thou wilt, but give
Love to me.

Yes, ask what Thou wilt, any hopes, any joys of human affection, any rewards of love, but let not love depart."


I know this last part is long, but it is the mirror of my heart these past few months, especially in the area of one particular relationship.

I know, I know

So I know I promised a post yesterday, but as things go, it didn't happen. I got off of work late, and then had reading to do, and yada yada. Sadly enough today is not looking good for a post either, once again work, then bible study, and I have to finish up a chapter for my class, so expect it on Wednesday or Thursday. Los Ciento!

I know I am long overdue. Something of substance is on its way...

Ok, so I know I haven't posted in almost a month now, but as time allows I will try and post more often. God has been doing oh so very much in me as of late. I have been tested and tried more in the past few weeks than I have in quite some time. But in the midst of it all, God has been doing a mighty work in my heart. He has been showing me things that I could not even begin to put into words regarding my heart, relationships, and family. But He seems to have oh so much more to do.

I plan on coming home and writing up a post conjoining two word studies that I have done, but I am just too tired to do it tonight, so until tomorrow...

Real post coming soon!!

The weather here is insane. A tornado went straight through our town, it is taking roofs off left and right. It flung a trailer on top of someone's  truck!! There is flash flooding, and hail ( golfball to baseball size) , and low-lying clouds with ground reaching lightening. The winds are hitting 85 mph!!!Our lights are goinging out every 5 minutes, it is supposed to be like this until 9pm.

The red section is right near us! On the TV, it has gone passed red, and moved on to a more severe purple!!

Ok, so I really don't have time for this...but...

A bunch has been going on around here.

I like numbered things, so :

1. I have started a word study on thoughts/imagination, hopefully I can post some of it on here pretty soon.

2. I got in a 3-car-wreck on Wednesday morning. It was not my fault, and my car is fine, the front grill is just pushed in, and the back bumper cracked the rest of the way (it was already cracked). Considering the car behind me was totaled, the front end smashed in, the airbags deployed, and the windshield shattered, I made out pretty good. I'm just a bit sore.

3. I got soaked (drenched, sopping, waterlogged, wringing-wet) from walking on the sidewalk and a car drove past (through a GIANT puddle) and created a nice sideways shower of dirty rain water for me. It was picturesque.

4. We are leaving for Dallas TOMORROW!!!! Bro David Servant is doing a couple of Home Church Conferences there with his wife and daughter Elisabeth whom we miss very much! And we get to visit the Shooks.

5. If any of you read the Heavens family newsletter, there was a girl from Haiti with albinism, I am now sponsoring her! Supercool! Her name is Yveline, and here is her picture! She is the last one on the right.

LSU spring semester

Ok, really quick:

1. God is doing SO MUCH! In my heart, and mind, and family!
2. I have a class in the Cox building this semester, the one with the really BIG doors, sorta exciting.
3. I like Moodle, the new LSU blackboard type thing, it is REALLY nifty, and I like it way better than blackboard, semesterbook, or personal websites.
4. I am only working 12 hours a week ( aren't you happy Deanna :) )
5. I am taking Chemistry, Biology, Biology Lab, Math, and Anthropology.
6. I need to do a tour of LSU to find where the rest of my classes will be, and the best place to park since I can only get myself to one parking lot.

First post in like a month:

Ok, so I haven't posted in a while...oh well.



A sum up really quick before I have to go to class:

1. I am slowly getting better at the whole college thing.
2. I am 45th on a wait-list for a Chem lab I am looking at taking next semester.
3. LSU football is #1 again!
4. I found a really neat verse in Proverbs 5 the other day, I will try and find time to type it up and put it on here. I really liked it though.
5. The greatest classes ever created are Science Labs. I was talking to my current lab teacher, and found out that I really want to take the lab where you puncture a living frogs spinal cord, ( not kill him, just make it where it won't hurt him), then you slice him open and you can see his heart beating, you put a special type of forceps on his heart to measure the force,then you inject different medicines (the ones that effect the nerves) and see the changes in his heart rate, and the force put out by it. It sounded really cool.
6. I declined being on Tigervision today.
7. I have 3 weeks of classes left.
8. I have to go now.

Fun talking to you!

College

Top 5 things I hate about college:

1.) Computer testing, what is wrong with a good ole' scan tron and #2 pencil?

2.) 5 hours in the Math Lab- once you do your homework, what else is there to do...more homework, I am over halfway done with my homework for the entire semester, and I should be done with the whole semesters homework by the end of the month, maybe...depending on how bored I get in there and how much time I waste staring at the screen while I warm my hands from the freezing cold air.

3.) Atmosphere that is generated by 99.99999999% of the students on campus - and after today I am NEVER picking up a copy of the daily reveille, it was horrible, and I don't need to know about news like that

4.) Rain, chucks aren't very waterproof, and so my feet get soaked, and then I have to sit in freezing cold classrooms for hours which turns my feet into ice cubes.

5.) The amount of hours than are (supposed to be) put into studying ( I don't think I have this part down yet, like I always get it all read, and all my stuff done, but I could be better about it)

Top 2 things I like about college:



1.) My Chemistry teacher sound EXACTLY like Ernie from Sesame Street.

2.) Biology Lab - can't go wrong there ( We have been studying the rate of the reaction of catalysts. I found the effect of varying enzyme sources on the rate of the oxidation of catechol to Benzoquinone by catechol oxidase. We got to use a spectrophotometer, we "trick" it by finding the absorbency of a blank and the switching it to transmittance and inserting the Treatment tubes which then tells us the absorbency of it, which we used to find the concentration and the standard deviation. I learned how to graph my data using Excel. It was REALLY fun!)

This video is SO COOL!!!! Only watch this if you like biology, namely cells...it has won awards and things, a group of people and some students from Harvard put it together, it is really cool.

New URL...

I'm changing my URL. It will be rescuetheperishing.blogspot.com . I am going to do it in a few days, just wanted to let you know.

Hopefully this will be my final update.

Today(Friday) I am having my 4 impacted wisdom teeth removed.

Monday-Wednesday I will be at Dr Kaufmans Infusion Center where i will recieve a continuous IV drip of some medicine in low doses that 99% of the time breaks headaches/migraines.

That is only if removing my teeth doesn't remove the headaches ( if it doesn't then those dates will most likely be pushed back).

For the first time all year school is sounding good-minus the minimal amount of makeup work.

One more week...

Monday-Pain Doctor_ nothing except one more medicine to take.
Tuesday-Peds Dr, and Dentist_ 2 meds and anti-depressants which I will not be taking and an x ray of my teeth that says I need to have my wisdom teeth removed because they MAY be causing the headaches, and they would have to come out anyway
Today-MRI_ who could like it, 2 of my veins blew, and it hurt because he kept having to re-stick the needle and then try to put the burning medicine in.
Tomorrow-Neurologist,and Oral Surgeon_no longer the Peds neurologist, and he will look at the CT, blood work, spinal tap, X-ray of my teeth, and MRI, and come up with the next step, then we go to Prarieville to see about getting my teeth pulled.


And the headache persists, but once again I am still drawing breath.

Update on the Jello mold, it is done, but I still have to take it out of the mold. I think the green layer melted the yellow layer, so it is yet to be seen how it turned out. But the flavoring is strayberry, orange, lemon, lime, and black cherry. And it is all sugar free, and fat free.

Update

Ok, I got a spinal tap Tuesday( it wasn't bad, they sedated me) And my pressure was 20.5 opening, and 20 closing. That Dr. said it was most likely a pseudotumor, so to confirm it we went to the optomologist today who said no papladima, meaning no pseudotumor. So next is an MRI, and a trip to the pain Dr. Monday. I am on medicine now that relieves the some, but I have an allergic reaction to it which makes me itch every where, and it drives me crazy, so I take benedryl. I am also on an anti-nausia med, which makes me sleep. But I am alive and breathing and I plan on continuing that way for some time.

Update

I still have a headache, we are able to get it to go down to a 2-3 on the pain level, but it ranges in intensity hour to hour. Monday the neurologist thought it was most likely stress, so I am quiting my job at McDonald's until the end of the school year, where I will decide to work either there or at a Dr. office. Today I went to Woman's hospital to get more lab work done, trying to rule out some viruses. I am going back to the neurologist tomorrow as well, we will see what they have to say. But I am living and breathing and sleeping, lots of sleeping. ( the medicine makes me tired)

I have 34 days left of school.

The testing of your faith produces patience.

This week has been from the depths of Sheol. It started Tuesday with a massive headache, so I took 4 ibuprofen and went to bed. I slept for 17 hours straight, and woke up with a headache 10 times worse. I went to a doctors appointment and she sad that if they didn't lighten up then I needed to go to the ER and get blood work, and a CT. So Wednesday night we went to the ER, and it was packed, so Poppie drugged me up and we went to Louie's. I got grits, only to throw them up 20 minutes later. Thursday morning we went back to the ER, and got my blood work and CT. It was normal, they did start an iv and give me morphine and some other thing for nausea. I left with a few prescriptions, and came home to crash. I slept away most of my days. Tuesday I slept 17 hours straight, and I slept 12 hours last night. The headache never fully leaves, and 4 ibuprofen doesn't even touch it. So every 2 hours I am taking some form of medication. Monday I go to a neurologist, and we will try and figure out what is wrong with me. But, that is a sum up of my boring life.